TIME TO TIME

TIME TO TIME

Time to time
I walk down to the valley from the path
Where life is in abundance
Love is everywhere
But no one knows
How unfortunate
to take love as granted
Ants are stepped on
Bee are poisoned
Rocks are broken like faith
Green has no color
Love is everywhere
But no one knows
Eyes are open
Yet blind....
Sun is there
Yet not warming
Clouds are there
Yet no rain reach
Earth is there
hiding souls

Yavuz Oncelay
2002

DRAMA OF A FORGOTTEN STAR

DRAMA OF A FORGOTTEN STAR

again all alone
you love being alone don't you?
and being nasty toward people
who care for you
that is your nature
nature of wild...
uncontroled sentiments of
being wildly nasty
siting above the silence
so you dont discuss
have no courage to discuss

you look angry ....loveless
like someone is peeping between doors
all alone.. all ignored..
and finally you smile
like someone who is leaving forever
where to I asked
you are not sure
your mind flies and lands somewhere
you dont care where
so what is the urge
or you finally decided to free yourself
and dismiss your slave soul
what kind of a mood is that
you are surprising me

you are quite
but I know
mountains erupting again in your soul
something burning you
but....
you dont know what it is
so you want to fly
and become a ball of fire
like sliding forgotten star
I feel you said ''yes'' with grief
and whisper with pale voice
you cannot stop it
I know
you want that star shine again
and
you want everybody to see it again
with enjoyment
yessss.... you said like you moaning
yessss.....
once someone sees you like a star
you would be ready to drop that person
and chase the eyes of others
never ending hunger
nothing can satisfy that hunger and thirst
all the river of this planet cannot put off that fire
fire of endless sparks
each carries your desire
never ending desires

yet love is simple
it is hidden in a falling leaf
and it is in every gentle touch
but you screammmm nooooooo
wanting to be a burning star
beyond all modesties
you want that glamour that elusive fascination
you search that magic spell
touching everywhere with blind eyes
senseless fingertips.... revolting
making the gods angry
but you dont care
because you want to be at the center
thinking it is your permenant place
you think you were chosen
to be washed with the rain of spiritual love
yet passing clouds only offer you endless shadow
like a poetic gloom
and its dark fire destroy its grace recklessly

but you are still hungry
like a monster of ancient beauty
you will never be satistfied
because for you
there is no love
you alone in this universe
infact dont need the love
you are the universe
yet noone is trying to discover anymore
self made infinity all alone
glamour of endless
shaping the shadows of sadness

yet love is there
right next to you
if you take off the dress of you
if you become naked
as you arrived into this planet
with all the goodness of universal love
shared by all
instead
not concentrated in a woman of poor fortune
simple like this....

wrinkles...deep scars of your heart
lines of your life
dont know what to do with them
filling your bitterness between them
smooting the agonies
consuming them with wild angers
a monster
sweeping everything
every good feeling of any good intention
preventing every innocent love
not to be flourish in helpless deserts

all of a sudden you asked
''soooo... are you leaving me''
I am not leaving you
I am in you
digest me....

is that what you asked after all
no goddess is suppose to talk like that
I am just a dust
in your monstrous planet

then you surprise me again
asking my picture
finally you are landing on real world
how can you leave your own paradise
and land on this filty world

picture......! are you blind and senseless
you cannot picture me with my words
through my words....
but no ... like every single monster
in the history of planet
you are silly....

I dont know why
but somehow I like you
and keep coming to you
keep touching you
your body becomes very familiar now
I know every inch of your body by heart
realise that every inch
smells different
feels different
like a true Goddess ready to deliver
beauty of every inch
all different....all smell unique within
yet...it is just for proving her own beauty
selfish like endless sky
where dead stars are crying
never will shine again
your tears making the lake of gloom
but answer is in love
and it is there in an unknown
corner of the midnight moon
ready to be taken with all its treasures
only thing it desires
is the loyalty and respect
thats not you can crown the love with
you just want to consume it
for your ego’s endless hunger
you break the crown into pieces
destroy everything
until there is no possible corner
in the whole universe
to hide an innocent love

yes thats what you want
thats what you do
hunger of you ego
wants to be last
to be destroyed
IT cannot stand to see
single object behind her
you belive you are sent to this planet
and sent in such an important day
you are a miracle
supernatural
violation of universal rules
makes you blind for simple happiness
and a simple love is there to change the fate

tell me
how you feel
the warm hands on your cold body
does it take you away
from the kingdom of ice
frozen and dormant for years
all these years
why you didnt come back to me
you are afraid arent you?
simple touch would have opened
the shining sky in a moment
lake of glooms
would have evaporated instantly
so no reflection of your supernatual EGO
then simple love
would have pulled you down to earth

what a dilemma
glamorous sky or filthy earth

so sleep now
stay in sky
I will come to you all naked
with universal reality
and will touch
your monstrous desires
desires that forgotten for years
of simple touch
with infinitive enjoyment
that you have missed so long
unforgotten touch of glamourus past
when stars used to slide deep in you
with pleasant trace of the dust of gold
yes it was yours
you have forgotten now
selfishly nervous
with ever growing self image
that make you smaller and smaller everyday

simple touch can teach you that
hunger is not a real hunger
but false image of your EGO

yet you secretly took me deep in you
strange.......but fits your needs
your humanly needs
remining you that
you are a simple woman
remining you that
greatness is hidden in simplicity

even though you are wild
you are uncontrolable
something deep from you saying different
bothering you
being a humanbeing is not too far from you

PARADOX
of your wholeness
so paradox becomes an option
does it confuse you?
hope so...
maybe you can be understood better
and kick out permenantly from heaven
and once you stand up for that
you may be considered as a real power
I can hear you saying ‘give it to me’
but can you handle it ?
you always use the power of others
using your own power may humiliate you
can you handle it....
your past image with present
for shaping the future
to gain some
you sacrifice more
for the time being

‘ tucked in a soul ‘
you are a hypocrite
power hunger hypocrite
‘ to much compession to temper ‘
is that what you say and describe
now both touched to you
I offered that to you
and pushed you into universe
as you pushed me
the space of endless love
so you may understand
the feeling of flying in endless emptiness

and you say
‘ I love endless freedom to love ‘
it is almost blind
all dark that you scared of
at the edge of the emptiness
inch away from falling down
in an absolute dark

you screammmmm ‘ nooooooooo...’
whose dark is that then
you want dark
which doesnt cause absolute blindness
but you are blind already
in your endless darkness
I dont mind
I recognise you
as soon as I touch you
as soon as I taste you
as soon as you take your first breath
then I will hold your hand

‘ you of little faith ‘
you scared again
becoming very earthly
feeling the warmness of my hands
their hesitancy will tell you who I am
once you feel it you will never leave me
in either way
simple
or
endless sophistication
I let you choose
for your earth journey
now you will have more and more of my love
and you will ask more and more to consume
your sneaky intentions
you selfish eartly woman of sky

now you call me ‘ cruel ‘
but
it will be permenant love making
as cruel as you are selfish
yes as cruel
beyond touching you
I am in you
in you silly monster
worshiping everywhere
in your desert ..in your ocean
in your rivers
so you can feel as a goddess on earth
then you deliver beauty and joy
and feed me with your taste of universe
I leave every earthly taste in you
I let them crawling
every move is me
like your sliding stars
omnipresent here and there
and everywhere
in the kingdom of perversity
yet winds are hidden
and all the waves oozed into the rock
of glomorus past

Cemil Yavuz Oncelay

Picture by C Y Oncelay

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LOVE OF THE RIM

LOVE OF THE RIM

your lips...
had never been that generous
glass was my body
wine...my soul..
your smile was joy
and I
reaching your mind ...
dancing and turning..
sky was on earth..
yet earth in sky..
stars danced with souls
we danced with moon

image of sun
reflected from your glass
into your eyes..
into your soul..
that indeed was my eye
reaching you to tie

smile on your lips
became laughter in my soul
you were in me
where was I
in us
whose laughter of it
yours... mine...
ours...ıt had to be ours
in our own solitude
in a green forest
crowed...but none saw us
forest was cool
yet the fire was there..in us..
flames of fire were our tongues

by Cemil Yavuz Oncelay
March 2000
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TO JOEY

TO JOEY...
be there
be that secret place
where you hide shadows of puppets
among the many faces
and their exact shades
I will be the sun
that you cannot open your eyes
of shame
yet no light at back of shade
no shade of shame
only the echo of empty words
echo sneaks
as way of life
and you walk away on reality
where slippery shadows dancing
words lie under your feet
soulless weight
earth cannot feel
so...
you crash to the pieces in me
collected you one by one
from my heart
from my soul
from my mind
from my memory
and let them free
to their enslavement
where they come from
I freed myself from you
my slave...


Cemil Yavuz Oncelay
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July 2004

FROM JOEY...
it is amazing to me but I can't seem to say
what I am doing here
my tongue is all twisted around the air
I am looking for words
that were so well rehearsed
but I cannot find them anywhere
with you there is no easy answer
it's true
you change the equation that I add up to
and all of the things I thought I knew
you turn it around
I am amazed
when push comes to shove
what I'd give to you
everything
I am amazed
the hallways I wouldn't mind crawling through
and I do it for days and days
I am amazed , I am amazed
that places you taking to me
wait I thought I had this down
I built all my cages and my hide out
I covered all my bases
but you
you creep in like a whisper
I try not to listen but I hear you
I dont know just what it is you do
but I do it again
I am amazed
when push comes to shove what I'd give to you
everything
I am amazed
the walls that I wouldn't mind
crashing through
and I would do it for days and days
I am amazed , I am amazed
at all the things I know

Joey

Joey's note :I didnt write that but it is a song
that make me think of you....

SOMETIMES

SOMETIMES



sometimes sad..
but laughing
noone sees
I live ..
in me..
colours become shade..
long within
yellow...gray and pink...
light..
in gold cups
always precious in dark..
sometimes sad..
but laughing
knowing where light is
behind dark
in shades
wrapped in sadness
yet..
gold shines
sky slides
in me all blue
like a smile
off
freedom of complication
has no shade
within..
absent like a lost
off light

Cemil Yavuz Oncelay
Oct 2000
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CYBERFAITH

CYBERFAITH

is it a chance or cyberfaith
there wasn't any street to meet
where eyes touch
there wasn't any park
to walk hand in hand
it was the endless labyrinth of our minds
where we met
no one knew its path
sometimes to heart
sometimes to soul
yet it was more real than the real itself
remember...
one cybernight
I touched your hand in the labyrinth
then our shoulders
then our knees
your eyes softened
your soul walked out of your eyes
it was brighter than the sun
scorching.....
invading...
capturing...
dominating.... in haste
remember...
you held my hands
give way to your loving body
where...
passion was endless
love was beyond words

was that a chance or cyberfaith
remember....
wild winds were hidden in us
sunlike heat was in our bodies
as we became one in mind
oceanlike waves in our bodies
desertlike whispers in our ears...
and that autumn day
we created a heaven
our heaven of solitude
was that a chance or cyberfaith
could it be any doubt
could it be denied
certainly it was beyond
where...our labyrinths were mingled
and we were the only one
know all the corner of it
so...
this is not a chance..
this is a cyberfaith


Cemil Yavuz Oncelay
May 1997
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OFF SPRING

OFF SPRING

light...
with its eternal silence and solitude
glides in our sacred being
where...
loves are hidden
passion is feverless
memories wrapped with melancholy
and
time is restrained so long..
yet
this is the moment we are all waiting
we let it glide through
let it spark on the bold ventures
so....
far away...untouchable boundries
can approach a pulse away
cannot ignore to touch warmness
so immidiate
so irresistable...

Oct 1999

Cemil Yavuz Oncelay
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LOVE UNDER ASHES

LOVE UNDER ASHES

love
when real is like a fire
time passes...stays under ashes
always warm
ready for flames
and... in an autumn day
soft breeze takes off the ashes
a spark fly in the air
noone knows where it goes
yet truth is..
it reaches the hearts
and start the old fire
once more...
it burns everything
but us...standing in it
as before...enjoying the flames
and touching without a fear
keeping the core
hiding it again under the ashes
and waiting for the breeze
..timeless


C Y Oncelay
september 2000

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JAIL OF SINS

JAIL OF SINS
arms
legs
heart in chain
body captured in the sins
yet
beyond the beautiful green eyes
there were endless shining lights
chained into sad darkness
guarding the tall standing dark moment
in heart..
in soul..eyes...
begging life to comeback with joy
and face reflecting the agony...of past
in a moment of end of hopes
a murky morning mist
cover innocent eyes
unfair pain of life hits the shores of mind
....as rough as present past
chain gets heavier
soul gets disturbed
dark get even darker
cursed memories brighten
yet in a split of moment
face shines
dim light of love echoes kisses
kisses turn brighter light
light becomes sun
sun refills sadden heart
..............................
tears down the dark
shattered darkness is not darkness anymore
contrary
turns into soft shades...of autumn
one feels alone in the echoes of shadesin her unknown
nature matures you
billion beats of lifes arise
with one soul and heart
on the endless pain of love..
we all stand next to it
more mature and sensitive
feel her instant power
learning from her instincts
and in return
she asks your hand
.....that is the moment you waited for so long
a smile..
become a morning sun
full of forgiveness...hopes and love..


Cemil Yavuz Oncelay
Nov 1998

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